I talked to my daughter last night, and now I just have to write something. She is going to school to become a medical person, and totally kicking booty as far as grades and academic achievements are concerned. She is a late bloomer like me…I did not return to school until I was 35, and for her it was the age of 28. Also like me, once she got her groove on, nothing is stopping her. She has a 4.0 GPA, and she will do anything to make sure it stays that way…well almost anything ;-). I was highly protective of my GPA too. It was one of the few things in my life that I felt like I had control over, and that felt good!
Now it appears that I am to be returning to the world of academia. I have tried everything I can think of to make a living with the skills that I have on board right now, and it just is not happening. My professional skills are obsolete, and my artistic skills have only led me to truly understand the term “starving artist” too well. Something has to give, and once again, it is me. So I am looking into going back to become certified as a teacher. I honestly think it would be awesome. I know for a fact that I no longer want to be a part of Corporate America…. Been there, done that, even got a few souvenir tee shirts. No more meat grinder for this country girl.
I told Amy about it last night and I am STILL overwhelmed by the support and love that she offered up. I am so darn proud of her, but what blows me away is how darn proud she is of me. We are a mutual admiration society of two. She reminded me of a lot of things that I guess I needed reminding of. She reminded me of how all my life I have never given up and how I have always accomplished whatever it was that I set out to accomplish. I really needed to hear that because ever since I lost my job last February, I have felt as though not only are my skills obsolete, but that I am obsolete as well. I have tried a lot of things since February – things that have not worked out. It tends to wear on a person, and at my age that is not such a good thing. But she is right – I will get through this the same as I have gotten through everything else, and I will come out a better person as a result.
So I am going to pursue this teaching thing, and my daughter will be my inspiration. I guess my kids have always been my inspiration, but now that they are grown I have let that slip a little. No more of that! They still need my guidance, and they still need a good example, and it is still up to me to set it. I set the example for her to get an education and to never give up on her dreams, but she also needs an example of how to keep going no matter what crops up and no matter how old she is. She needs an example of how to ease into the granny panties thing gracefully and with dignity. So my new path, my new adventure, my new outlook…it is all…for the love of Amy!
Till next time!
